I haven't felt like myself in a few days now....mentally or physically. I'm a little worried about the ultrasound on Tuesday if you want to know the truth. I'm not really in pain...pain is maybe the wrong word, just a kind of weird twingy feeling mainly on the left side of my abdomen that doesn't seem to go away. It's got me down though. Even my friends at tennis this morning noticed even though I tried to act as normal as possible. Jeanette called me this afternoon "What's going on? You're just not yourself." I know it, and I hate it, but that's the fact.
After tennis, I knew I needed to get away so I put on my swimsuit and headed to "my heaven" (see March 21st post if you're not sure what I'm talking about). I needed to be by myself for awhile and have a good talk with God. I needed to gaze out at his wonderous waters and for awhile just reflect.
This too shall pass. (sigh)
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Oh, KD, I prayed for you today when you came to my mind at school. "Lord, hold Kathy close to You while she goes through this necessary waiting. Let Your peace flow down over her like the waves of the ocean."
Thank you Jean!
Kat, I can only imagine how scary it must be when you've gone through having cancer. It seems that when things just aren't "right" physically, I'm sure in the back of your mind, you're worried it could be something pretty bad. But you know what? The Lord brought you through the first time, and HE will carry you through anything you may be facing.
You're healthy, you take care of yourself and you are a fighter. You could have something as simple as a pulled muscle or a bruised muscle. Please try not to worry and know you have plenty of people praying for you!
Keep us posted on your tests and know we are here to help in any way.
Thanks Tracey. You're right...the fear of re-occurence I guess will always be with me. It hasn't helped that the news is full of John Edwards' wife's re-occurence. You're also right...God holds me in His hand. I should not fear.
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